'A HOLE IN MY HEART'
Close your eyes.
- What for? - Just do it.
Close your eyes and tell me what you see.
Dad? Dad?
Dad!
Get up!
Dad...
The kitchen is on fire.
The kitchen is on fire!
You fucking asshole!
The fucking kitchen isn't on fire, you retard!
- Asshole! - Did you pee yourself?
You fucking retard... fucking twisted, disgusting fucking...
Fucking jerk, you prick that's what you are. Asshole!
You prick!
We could say we're sorry...
I'm sorry, Eric!
Dad will never say that again, it was stupid of me. Sorry.
Sorry.
Eric, a glass of water would be nice.
My back's really hurting me, I can't...
- Eric, can't you get it? - Yeah, okay.
Eric?
- Sure... - Great.
Great...
- You sure I don't need make-up? - Put on make-up later.
Okay.
- Here you go. - Thanks, appreciate it.
Thanks.
Thanks...
- Hello. - Hello.
- What's your name? - Tess.
- How old are you? - 21.
- And now you're sitting on my couch? - Yeah...
Yes, you are. And why are you doing that?
Because... because we're going to make a film.
What film are we going to make on my couch?
A porno film.
You're going to get fucked on my couch?
Yeah.
How will that be? Will it be fun?
- Are you horny? - Yeah.
You like getting a cock in every hole at once?
Yeah, that's the best there is.
You know, Eric... It's so hard...
- He doesn't like me. - Yes, he does.
No. He doesn't like me.
- Of course he does. - He doesn't.
Of course he does.
You just say, 'Of course he does'. In that case, tell me why he does?
He does. Of course he likes his dad.
Sure, but I don't mean that. I mean he should have respect for me...
- A certain respect... - He does respect you.
Not when he asks if I've peed myself.
That's true.
- Can't I be respected? - He does.
- No, he doesn't. No, he doesn't! - He does.
- I'm telling you he doesn't. - He does.
I say no. No.
I hope we do something sick today! I'm so fucking horny!
I've always wanted this, it's my dream! I've always fantasized about this!
When I was five I wanted to be a model, like a H&M model.
Then when I was 12, I wanted to make porno films, and now I am!
It's crazy, it's so fucking cool! I'm so fucking cool!
Rickard, have you got any anaesthetic cream?
What, for your scar?
- For your scar? - No, just if there will be lots of anal.
- What scar?
- Sure there'll be anal. - What fucking scar?
- You know, she had her pussy operated. - You had it operated?
Let's see your pussy.
- I had my labia reshaped. - Really? Can I see?
Show how it turned out.
Come closer so we can see the whole thing.
- Exactly. - Sit down. Come and sit down.
- That's it. - That looks really good.
Very good...
A jewel... What did you do? Where did they cut?
She shortened... you see the bit that hung out there.
Spread them a bit more, we can't see. We need to check it out.
Now look! Shit, I really need some anaesthetic cream now!
I need it if we're doing anal. Other- wise, I won't be able to sit for a week!
You can't see anything, it's really well done.
Really professional.
- It's really good. - Did it hurt?
- No... - She got sedated.
- I didn't get sedated. - You weren't sedated?
- No. - Did you hear, Geko?
The fucking plastic surgeon sold her labia for 400 dollars.
What! Is it true?!
Yeah, some guy bought them on the net.
He's jerking off to them in a glass jar while the bits float around.
You can sell any kind of shit in this world.
- What shit? - It's just a piece of meat.
- I don't get it. - We're talking about a great pussy.
I'll come back soon and we'll start.
- Is it in the cupboard? - Yes, it's there.
Christ, her pussy is lovely now. Beautiful.
You see, the very first man...
had two heads...
four legs and four arms.
And that man was, like... whole.
Then...
I don't know why, a punishment of the gods or something...
lightning struck man.
Man was divided and became two.
And this man, this new man...
had one head and two arms and legs like we have today.
But he was still missing something.
So the new man wandered about in the world...
searching and searching for his other half.
That's what we're still doing today. We are searching and searching.
But no one can find anything. So man can't be whole again.
Man can't be like he was in the beginning...
Everyone is in confusion looking for what can't be found.
Everyone wanders around looking for their other half, and they can't find it.
We want to be glued together.
We don't want to be half, we want to be whole.
You know what I was thinking?
He should do something that gets him out.
He's just... He sits in there and gets paler and paler.
- He should get out. He can't hide. - I've got a really good idea.
- We should do something together. - You should go to a shooting range.
Do some shooting with him.
You know what? I'll film you while you're putting make-up on.
I want to ask you both... Are you horny?
I'm horny, anyway. I feel like fucking the whole place apart.
- Just boom, boom, boom! - What's your favourite colour?
- Red and pink. - Blue. Yeah, blue.
If you could take one person to a desert island...
Only one person... You'd be there for one year. One year.
- Who would you share it with? - You know, Geko?
I would take you along.
Then I can't say you, that would be too simple.
I'd take David Beckham. He's good looking.
- Good looking? - We'd suit each other.
He's in shape, he has blonde highlights.
He changes hairstyles quite often. Page-like, slicked back...
he's had braids, shaved... He has a sporty style...
and he's really trendy, fashion conscious.
- Geko? - Yes?
- Know what I thought you could do? - What?
You could cycle in the apartment. It'd be documentary-like.
- He's so great! - He's so great. Geko is the best!
My favourite fairy tale?
- The Lion King. - Little Red Riding Hood.
I'm the horny Little Red Riding Hood.
And I've got some sweets for grandmother.
- Now say, 'Why's your cock so big'. - Grandma, why's your cock so big?
Well, I'm ill...
I've got some aspirin you could take.
This is what I forgot. It's anaesthetic cream.
Relieves constipation in 15 minutes.
Lubricating gel. I've got a little here that's really good.
- Eric, it's dad. - What is it?
- Can I come in? - Sure.
Hi! What are you doing?
Nothing.
We're going to start and I thought if you wanted to join us?
- What? - No... Not like that.
I thought if you wanted to hold the camera or something.
- No. - Okay.
- Well, you know we're out here. - Yes.
- Is that okay? - Yeah.
Well, then... Bye.
We're just here. Good. Bye.
Bye.
Hey, honey... What a pretty pussy you have!
Keep going. Go on.
- That's it. - Spread it. I want to see both holes.
Spread it... work them both... that's it... I want to see inside.
Yes, it's opening... What a jewel...
What a red pussy you have! Let's spread it a bit.
- Oh, God... - That's it!
That feels good, huh?
- You know what I saw on TV? - No.
Right at the bottom of the ocean...
there are these...
You'd think it was dark and cold down there, wouldn't you?
But there are these, like, springs.
Water gushes out of these springs from the middle of the earth.
- It's almost... It's 400 degrees hot. - What?!
All around these hot springs...
some form of life has developed.
Fucking spread it!
Come on!
The scientists don't know what they live on.
Because really, they shouldn't be able to exist there, but they do anyway...
- Have you seen pictures of them? - On TV, they went with submarines.
With cameras and powerful lights attached.
Could they get down so deep?
One thing that's sick is...
these creatures have lived down there in darkness all their lives.
How do they tolerate light? What if they die?
Imagine if, after they'd filmed, everything was just exterminated.
- What, they lit them? - Yeah, they lit them to film them.
What happened to your hand?
Well... I was born like that.
- Is it true that your mom's dead? - Yes.
- How'd she die? - She drove off the road.
A car accident?
Terrible...
- Did she die straight away? - No, she died in the ambulance.
It's sad.
- How old were you? - Four.
Poor you!
Is that why I'm here now?
- What? - She's dead, is that why I'm here?
- What do you mean? - I'm your mom.
- No... - We can pretend. It's okay.
I'm your mom.
- I don't think you like me. - You don't like me.
- Yes, I do. - Of course I do.
No, you don't. Just because I have a lump in my breast.
You don't have a lump. You have nice breasts.
I feel totally...
- Do you think I have a small cock? - No, I don't.
You think they're too small. You think I have ugly breasts.
You have quite big breasts. I think I have a big cock.
- I think it's quite normal. - Quite normal!
You couldn't breathe when I shoved it down your throat!
I'll get them operated... I'll just sleep a bit first.
Quite normal? I don't exactly feel happy right now.
- Us against you. - You against me?
- Let's go. - Isn't it unfair?
You in or out? Come on!
I told you! I told you I'd score!
Rickard, I told you! Two... me against you two!
I'm the best, I'm the best!
I don't know. I brought my make up 'cause I'm not sure how to do myself.
Should I put anything on my lips?
Should I sit over there? How should I be?
Where? Here?
What should I do?
It's nice... It's really nice...
This isn't real.
I'm somewhere else...
I dreamt...
that I fell asleep in the middle of filming.
The whole world talks about UFO's.
UFO... Strange things...
If they'd been here, I would have...
I would have gone with them. You know what? Guaranteed...
I've seen... I've seen so much here on earth.
'Cause, I've lived here all my fucking life.
Typical me...
Could even drive their fucking... could even steer their ship, like...
just steer it, like...
That'd be cool.
Geko?! Rickard, wait!
Geko, hello! You can't fall asleep now!
Fucking hell!
What are you doing? You just lying there and sleeping?
- I fell asleep. - Seriously. Tess, don't laugh.
We can't have this.
- What is it? You're sleeping? - I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.
- What happened? - I don't know, I just went out.
But what happened?
- What the hell are you laughing at? - Sleep at night...
Turn off the camera. Turn off the damn camera!
- I feel like a fucking idiot. - You are an idiot.
- I'm sorry. - It's okay if it happens...
- But that's enough. - Come on Tess, turn that shit off!
I dreamt that I saw the earth split open.
I saw the earth's crust split open.
And something black and sticky poured out.
All the fish died. And all the birds.
My hands stuck together.
Now they're nice and slippery.
Now you're all numb.
You have no feeling in your hand anymore.
Feels good, huh?
I talked to Eric.
He's a little shy.
I thought that poor guy's never had a girl before.
- Could you do Eric someday? - Are you crazy?!
Just kiss him a little. He can touch your nipples...
- No... - Why not? Just let him touch you.
Just that feminine thing. He can feel his... feel a woman's body.
He'll do that at some stage in his life.
- Doesn't have to be with me. - You could give him that joy today.
You want some wine?
- No. - But I poured us some.
I'm fine.
- Are you sure? - Yeah.
You can't fall asleep in the pussy, that's not right.
- Have you taken anything? Tell me. - No, no!
- I haven't taken anything. - Did you sleep last night?
Yeah, I did. But I don't know what it is. I just...
- I just feel a little tired. - Let me see your eyes.
- Can you continue? - Sure, I can...
- You sure of that? - Sure...
- I just care, man. - Thanks.
What a lot of stuff you got. Are you building something?
A little...
- What's it going to be? - I don't know. We'll see.
It's so dark in here. I'll open the blinds.
Why do you have a bunch of soil on the floor? Don't you ever clean?
What's that? Do you play vampires?
Or do you pretend you're an alien?
Hold this, I'm going to try them.
Seriously, do you wear them?
Do I look scary?
It's so hard!
Scary?
You can't speak with them. Here. What, don't you ever say anything?
- With those you can't talk. - I sometimes talk.
- What? - I...
I'll let the blinds down again. You want me to, right?
I don't understand how you can have it so dark. Sure, I don't live here.
Is that better?
- It's good having your support. - Sure.
Just stay there. Drink a little... Go for it...
I love it when you cheer me up, because...
then I start to smile a bit again. Cause usually I'm just...
pissed off all the time. I look angry...
- Well, now you're going to be horny. - Let's say so...
That's good. Let's say so. Let's go for it.
You haven't taken anything anyway?
Shit, no! No...
What do you do in here?
Mostly nothing.
- You listen to music? - Yeah...
Can I listen?
Sure, but I don't think you'll like it.
I don't think so either. But you never know.
Can you hold this?
Okay, put it on.
Do you think this is good?
Well, it's not...
really my kind of music. Sit in a dark room and listen to this.
Do you always wear black clothes?
Shit, I couldn't stand it.
You know you get hot in the sun in black clothes?
Although there's no sun in here 'cause you don't want to look out.
Hi, mom, it's me.
I don't know what I'm doing.
How's dad?
I dreamt quite a strange dream.
Dad was there... he had a gun that he wanted us to shoot.
After a while... I agreed.
Then I... I took the gun and raised it to his head and shot.
He died.
I hope you suffer! I want them to fucking fry you!
I want them to hang you!
There was blood all over the room.
Gushing...
This is me. This is me!
I had quite a normal childhood.
- Quite normal, actually. - Pull up your vest and show your tits.
When I was small, my friend Malin and I...
put an ad in a porno magazine...
to sell used panties. We got a shitload of replies.
So we bought some panties, put them in the bath and pissed on them.
Where was God when this happened? When all this happened?
So we pissed on them. So they'd smell really good.
The porno industry is bigger than Hollywood.
Bigger than the music industry.
It's the biggest on the internet.
He never heard me...
At the moment I'm doing something that... I'm going to try...
I'm going to try and make it real... so that it looks real.
As if it was really happening.
Some people say that what we're doing...
that it's wrong, dirty and ugly...
But if that's the case, the whole of mankind has a problem.
We're just giving people what they want.
This is pleasant, I think.
When I stick it in... perfect... She's getting it good!
- Cool, cool... - I've got quite a big cock.
Yeah, you have. A fucking big cock... This is great when you do this.
These are my pets. They're regular earthworms.
After a while you notice that they have their own personalities.
They react differently to things.
They're a little... a little particular.
You want to come out? Come out...
Here's one.
'Maxillofacial surgery.' Ear lobe contouring.
Face lifts. Forehead lifts.'
'Wrinkle removal or Restylan, Botox or Collagen injections.'
They look like regular earthworms, but they're quite different.
'Surgery on protruding ears, rhinoplasty...
bags under the eyes, lip surgery...
teeth whitening, liposuction of chin and neck.'
'Breast enlargement, breast reduction, breast lifting... '
'Mons pubis liposuction, Supra-pubic lift...
vaginal rejuvenation, labial reduction... ' That's what I did.
One day they'll turn into butterflies.
Just like me...
Listen, I've noticed something, but I think...
Don't you think she smells a bit? Don't you think so?
Sure, but she has done for some time.
I feel it sometimes when I'm fucking her, but I don't want to say anything.
It's soaps, it's deodorants, it's perfumes...
It's the whole fucking perfume shop...
- in a small pussy hole. - Sure...
She shaves all the time.
When she's not shaving, she's washing.
When she's not washing, she's shaving.
So she smells bad... Washes, smells bad...
The more she smells, the more she washes.
Then she washes even more and she smells even more.
- She's going against 'laws of nature'. - She's drying it all out...
the mucus membrane's in the pussy...
- She should look after her pussy. - You should yell at her.
Don't fuck with nature! Right?
- What are you talking about? - Your pussy.
- What? - That it smells disgusting.
No, shit... Rickard...
- It's not exactly like that. - I'll help you sort it out...
Just a little bit. It's just today...
You wash too much. It's probably that...
- 'Don't fuck with nature.' - Exactly...
Sorry!
Are you upset now?
Are you upset?
Well, your pussy does smell. Just a bit.
Well, your pussy does smell just a bit.
What the hell are you doing? Must you repeat everything I say?
- I'm stupid. - I'm stupid...
- I'm a pussy. - I'm a pussy.
- I open my legs for the whole world. - I open my legs for the whole world.
- I'm so sick... - I'm so sick...
...I should go to a hospital. ...I should go to a hospital.
- I'm nuts, I'm nuts, I'm nuts... - I'm nuts, I'm nuts, I'm nuts...
- I'm tired of this. That's it. Stop it! - I'm tired of this. That's it. Stop it!
- Christ, you're annoying! - Christ, you're annoying.
- Get ready for the next scene. Go on. - Get ready for the next scene. Go on.
- Don't talk back, I decide. Go on. - Don't talk back, I decide. Go on.
- I'm telling you. Go on now. - I'm telling you. Go on now.
Now! Go!
- I don't smell, I know that. - Fucking cut it out! Stop it!
- You want me to be all hairy and dirty?
Don't fuck with me, just go! Come back when you've calmed down.
Next time I just won't wash... I won't shave. We'll see if you like it.
Take it easy...
Guys would get really horny from that!
- Go. Please go!
- Just don't talk shit behind my back! - Go get ready for the next scene!
I'll go and wash again. That'd be good!
- Thanks! - Don't talk about me...
- What, are you going to wear that? - Yeah...
We thought that we'd simply kill you...
Thought we'd do a different film. Thought we'd kill you!
It's true... Listen to this...
This is how it begins, before the real stuff starts to happen.
It's kind of like an alarm clock...
We're not going to kill you. We're not going to kill you...
- Although... - What will you do?
Although it will feel that way... when we've knocked out your teeth.
Crushed your nose... and raped you with this baseball bat.
And there's just blood everywhere.
Then, maybe you'll feel like you are dead.
Or that you want to die... because it hurts so much.
- We'll rip apart your cunt. - Your kneecaps or there, or there?
It would feel so fucking nice to just...
Really hard, so it hurts so fucking much your fingers tremble...
Don't be scared, don't be. We're just kidding. Take it easy, relax...
Christ, take it easy. This is what it's like! This is how it can feel!
What you mean Geko? Let go of my cock... Let go...
- Rickard... - Let go of my thing...
This is it... this is how it feels when you go for it. It can feel like that...
- Stop it, Geko! - Let go of my hand!
I told you never to annoy me again. Didn't I tell you?!
- Didn't I?! - Geko, stop...
Stop?! I never stop!
- It's not funny... - Lie down! Lie down!
- Lie down! - Geko, stop it!
- No... - Do as he says.
Lie down, you got it! Don't talk shit! Get up!
- Rickard, this isn't fun... - Think you could make fun of me?!
Not so much lip now, huh?! What'd I tell you? What'd I tell you?!
Look into the camera! Into the camera! Got it?!
- Fuck, Geko... - Shut it! How's it feel? Huh?
How's it feel? Huh? How did that feel? Feel good?!
- Huh? No? Are you scared of me? - Good, good...
- Rickard... - Hit her so she looks into the camera.
- Stop... - Look into the camera!
See how it feels to be fucked with...
- What the fuck are you doing? - This is just pretend...
- You're all fucking sick! - This is nothing!
- Eric, it's just for fun. All of it! - Tess, take it easy...
- Don't touch me! - It was just for fun. Don't you get it?
It was just for fun. Just for fun!
Fuck that whore, she's just a sperm bucket!
- Can't take it? - Tess, it was just a bit of fun.
Listen, this was just for fun.
Everything we do here is for fun, you know that. Can you answer?
Fuck it! You can't take a fucking thing!
How you feeling?
'My mission is over'. My king calls for me, I return home.
- You didn't win that time. I won. - Throw...
- I won all your marbles. - Yep... here...
- Thanks. - And here...
That wasn't a great success.
There... I get all your marbles. I have so many I need a bag.
- I have one more. - I've collected a few nuts...
There's like a hill there on the carpet. That's what's giving me bad luck.
The police are coming!
Put that down, quick!
Pull yourself together! I've warned you about this.
I'll hit him in places where it doesn't bruise.
- See? I get all your marbles. - Here are your marbles.
- I want those, too. All of them. - Here they are.
- Did you see? Geko, look. - I'm out. Take your fucking marbles!
Shove your marbles up your ass. I'm sick of you, too.
- Shall I do that? - Yeah...
Hi, you okay?
Yeah...
Just wanted to check you were okay.
Okay?
How many times do I go to the room there and ask...
'Eric, you want to do something? ' No...
He wants to read, draw or listen to music on his headphones.
This morning I was sleeping and he came in...
'Dad, dad there's a fire in the kitchen.'
I went to the kitchen and there's no fucking fire anywhere.
He just does it to get your attention. It's the only reason.
You twist everything, so that everything I say is fine.
There's no problem according to you.
There isn't, what he does is positive.
Listen, I've got an idea.
I thought of something.
I saw something on TV. There was a professor, a psychologist.
He took his own problem child to a shooting range.
Since then, they've hung out together. It's about communicating.
- Everybody likes guns. It'll be fun. - Really fun.
I know how it is. You get a huge fucking hard on.
Shit... fuck!
- What's so funny? - You're so stressed out. Take it easy.
We're about to handle weapons. This is really serious.
I'm relaxed, I'm just wondering whether Eric will like it.
- He'll like it, don't worry. - Okay...
- Let's say so. - Good. Put the last one on.
That's it... I like her.
- She always smells good. - So you've met her?
No, but I would like to...
So if I'm going to say anything, it's just about loss. It could...
be my second name. I'm not...
Look, there goes Rickard. Look, there goes loss.
The one... that lost everything.
Loss is what I walk about in.
A whole load of fucking loss.
- I'll go and get him. - Do that.
- Eric! Get up! - Dad, what the hell?
It's not a real gun.
It's an air gun. We have two of them.
Try it. Here, I'll show you.
Here's the slide... This is...
- Watch out! - Sorry, sorry... Come in.
- That's also an air gun. Look here. - Dad, I don't want to.
- Dad, I don't want to... - Look, slide... Like that...
A round in the barrel. Shoot! Look here.
- Great fun! - Look, you'll like this...
Eric, look at this. I'll show you.
- What's the problem? - You're being silly.
- I don't want to shoot. - Just look at him.
- That's how you do it. - It's great fun.
- We think it's fun, why can't you? - Come on, Eric.
- Join in... - Christ!
You can't reject what you haven't tried. You don't know if it's fun.
- It's fun! - You reject cycling before you try it?!
This was... This was when I was small.
I'll show you something. We'll try and hit the breast.
I'll try and shoot off the nipple.
- Right in the middle. - I don't want to shoot.
Try it!
When I see this photo I think of...
how it could have been, how it was and especially, how it became.
Okay, Eric...
Good...
Shoot, for fuckssake!
I'm obviously not devoid of emotions, but...
they're all bunched together in a great big fucking...
Did you think it was fun?
That's good.
As you think so...
we should go to the gun shop...
get your very own, real gun. Real...
- I don't know. - You don't know?
Let's go right now.
No... No...
- Do you miss mom? - What?
- Do you miss mom? - Please...
Forget it. We can forget mom and we can forget the gun.
I've analyzed you...
What's that?
I've analyzed you.
You've analyzed me?
You're a homosexual, although you don't know it yourself.
What the hell do you mean?
Since mom died...
none of your relationships have lasted more than a month.
And when you have sex with a woman, it's always from behind.
And anal... so you don't have to see her face.
So the woman is there just so you can...
spit at and humiliate her.
Because you don't like women.
That's the thing. And so...
This whole gang-bang thing is all about...
you guys getting closer to one another when you...
stick your penises in the poor, stupid girl's bodily openings.
So you can rub your penises against one another.
What the fuck do you know about that?
If one of you is in one hole and the other is in the other hole...
then you meet in the middle.
There's just a layer of skin between you.
Is that so, you fuck?
You... you haven't even held a girl's hand before.
You know nothing about it. Listen...
Who played with dolls when he was small?
Who wanted to have a dress when he turned five? And why was that?
- I've analyzed that as well. - Have you, professor?
And what did you conclude?
It was because I missed mom.
I pretended the dolls were mom.
I love you.
I love you. I do... I love you.
You know what links those that do the sickest...
most disgusting things?
All of those who torture, rape and start wars?
All of them, every single one, is a man.
Do you understand why I don't want to be one?
Forget it, forget it... Just move on, smile and wink.
- Shut up! - It's tricky...
- You can shut up now! - The slightest mistake and it's over.
- You're training all wrong. - And you're so good at it...
- Shit! - I told you! It's heavy!
I've got a fucking inflamed muscle. Shut up!
It's Tess. It's Tess...
- Hi! - Tess!
I bought food.
Rickard, I bought food.
- Hi. You coming out? - No.
- Into the living room? - No.
Tess bought some food.
Sit here and rot, godammit!
- Tess? - Everyone's so boring out there.
It's awful...
It's so ugly, all the people are so ugly.
- Did you speak to that agent in LA? - No, I haven't had time.
- But I will. - Can't you do that?
Sure, I can...
You can check to see whether he received the tape.
- Lf he's seen it. - Yes... I'll do it.
- Lf he's seen the photos. - Yes, sure. I'll do it.
I didn't get into 'Big Brother'.
I applied, but I got a letter yesterday and they don't want me.
Forget it. It was really lucky you didn't get in.
You're far too good for them. Yes, you are.
You know, it was meant to be because something else is coming.
Are you sure you sent the tape?
- No, I haven't sent the tape. - You haven't sent it?
No, I haven't. But I will. I forgot it.
I didn't know it was so important to you.
I won't forget, I'll do it tomorrow.
I promise you. I promise you.
- You poured everything, that's nice. - We haven't drunk everything.
- I said poured... - You want some wine?
Yes, please.
- Let's see... - This is so good!
- Thanks. - You're welcome.
- Cheers! - Thanks!
- Cheers, Tess! - Cheers!
- Where's my milk? - Cheers, Rickard. It's over there.
- Thanks... Cheers for me, then. - Absolutely.
- Wait for me. - He can't wait.
- Cheers! - Cheers!
You shouldn't clink glasses, you should just look at each other.
- Is that right? - Look deeply and penetratingly.
Let's do it! Cheers...
Cheers. Cheers for us...
Three losers sitting here...
who have nowhere else to go, so we hang out with two other losers.
But, I don't think it's so bad.
- Cheers! - You've got dandruff!
- Let's eat. - This looks really good.
This is fun, it's almost like on the Finland ferry.
- Rickard, Pizza? - I'll have it when it comes.
- Geko? - I'll start with meatballs.
You going around? The table's small!
Take it easy.
- I bought the potato salad just for you. - Did you?
- I know you like it. - I'll take this long one here...
Rickard, are you taking the whole chicken!
- One chip. - Thanks. And two...
Do you want a sausage? You want a sausage?
Take that sausage away! Give me some of that.
- I'll have a small bit. - Here you are.
- And it's good, isn't it? - Yeah.
Try and eat as well!
- I bought really good food, didn't I? - It's great.
I took exactly what I wanted...
Whiskey?
We have tails as well And ears, and cocks as well...
You've turned into a woman?
Let's film a little bit.
You've turned into a girl. You had an operation?
You're going to feed me? You filming this, Rickard?
Chew a little... chew...
Chewy chew...
Look into the camera. Look into the camera.
- And smile... and eat... - Look into the camera.
Oh, God... Fuck!
Don't break that shit!
Look into the camera, Geko.
Breathe through your nose.
That's it.
It's an old tradition...
Don't talk, you're gonna drink my piss.
God, what did you say?
You want to drink this? Are you thirsty?
You want to drink?
All the energy I have, you disgusting bitch, is emptied...
only when I say your name. Mom...
A name I would have liked to have said.
But you didn't allow me to say it. And all the hate you have...
has passed over to me!
It felt so good... so good...
I have...
just killed you, mom.
I should have done it when I was five.
When I was five! Maybe it would have been easier.
Cut you up! Stick a knife in your throat!
Just... slice it off! It feels better!
- What is it? - What's up? You taking anything?
No...
I don't want you to feel sorry for me.
I just want to go back.
To you... Please, mom...
Take me in... in to you...
I have an illness. I have an illness...
- What are you saying? - Well...
Well... I'm going to die...
You know that?
All of us actually die. We just die. We're all going to die.
It would feel good if you would give me a hug.
Just to keep me calm.
- Come on! Come on! - I'm awake, I promise.
- I'm awake, I think. - Hello!
This is a show... It's showtime now!
You can leave now.
- You can leave now. - What you mean, leave?
They're out there playing video games.
I know. I'm joining them later.
I'm just resting.
- You can't lie here. Come on. - Yes I can.
Please, please, please... Can't you just...
Can I please lie here?! What's the problem?
You just going to sit there and look? You think that's nice?
Does it turn you on? Would you like someone to look at you?
Can't you just leave? Have you got a problem?
- Please... - Please just get out of here!
Please, please, please...
I love you...
- You must leave. Come on! - Stop it! Don't touch me! Let me go!
I just want to sleep!
Can't I just sleep here a bit?
Can't you just give me a little hug?
Can you fuck me?
Can't you just fuck me?
A little? Fuck me...
Please, kill me...
It's a little messy in here. How are you?
We could do something.
Do you look at your dad's films? Are you in love with me?
She's in doggy style... Then we have a yellow rose. Let's say this is it...
Stop it! Stop it!
Stop it!
Hello...
Ambulance... ambulance...
And you're a puppy... What's your name?
I found on the street. You followed me...
- Mom... - Licked my tears when I was sad.
Can someone understand how time goes around?
You just lay there, in my embrace And let your dad
Give you solace
I played in a hard rock band. Heavy metal...
Shit, it was... it was loud...
We're talking about '83 or '84.
We made a record. It wasn't exactly number one that year.
But for some inexplicable reason...
Sometimes in life you have to be lucky...
While we met rejection here, these guys turned up...
Well, there was an American label that heard us...
and became interested in us.
And brought us, like, the boys, over.
We went over there...
My mom comes from the USA. She comes from Sacramento in California.
We were a support band for Hanoi Rocks and...
She'd received a grant so she could be trained as a nurse.
...and Mötley Crüe.
At roughly that time, Reagan became president.
And his government completely changed education policies...
so that... among other things they cancelled the grant.
This meant mom couldn't afford to study to be a nurse.
This is disgusting! Please, I don't want to do this anymore.
Stop filming. Stop!
I told you I didn't want to. Please, cut it out.
Just fucking leave me! I don't want to talk!
I did something... I planted a tree.
Hi! I picked a fruit.
Hi...
Because deep in the darkest forest...
in there, there is a special kind of tree.
That has a very special fruit growing on it.
I picked a fruit like that.
It looks like a little heart.
And when you hold it in your hand... it beats.
So I took it to your school playground...
So tomorrow when you go there, a tree will have grown.
You can sit under that tree, in the shade...
and hide.
Because when you sit in the shade of that tree...
then none of the big, nasty boys can see you.
They can't touch you.
When you sit in the shade of that tree, you're invisible.
They can't see the tree either.
Because it's invisible.
Only you can see it.
Then no one can hurt you. Little one...
I'm not a virgin here...
But, here...
here, in between...
no one's ever touched me there.
Tess?
...never die, man, never! I'm gonna die, but I don't care!
Never! Never! Let's party!
- I'm gonna die, but I don't care! - I don't care!
I don't care!
I want to beat the shit out of someone. I feel like fighting!
Take it easy...
We go to a club and destroy some prick!
Go to a bar and take some shit out.
Take him apart!
Take someone's spine, like a fish...
Just punch, you get it? Just punch!
Just live life...
Chuck it down... punch and punch...
- Know who we can do? My dad. - Rip apart everyone...
We'll fuck up my dad. I often thought about it.
He's gonna die today. At 9 o'clock.
- Come on, Eric. - What?
- We're going to beat up grandad. - You're drunk!
Listen, we're going to go and beat him up.
Forward! Forward!
- Why you going to beat up your dad? - Mind your business. He's an idiot.
He was raped when he was small.
What?!
What, your dad raped you when you were small?
I'm... sorry...
I thought you knew...
Now it's good in here!
- You fucking assholes... - Rickard, take it easy.
Shut up, you... Shut up! Get out of here!
What are we going to do now?
Go to the couch.
- It'll be nice to lie on the couch. - What are we going to do?
'Lovely girl... ' You hear him?
You get it? That's nice. Are you horny?
- Geko? - Open... open... open wide.
Even more. As wide as you can.
You want it, huh? I'll show you how much you want it.
Look... look. Geko, look...
Look, she wants it!
I'd like to actually go out into space.
I want to go out into the universe. I want to see the universe.
The universe!
That would be really cool.
Where the hell are you all?
Hello, Eric? It's your dad!
Didn't you know about your grandad?
Didn't your dad say anything?
Come out... Mom!
Mom!
What, does he scream like that when he has nightmares?
I should go and look.
Dad. Dad!
Wake up. Dad!
Get up! The kitchen's on fire.
Did you wet the bed?
- How are you? - What...
- It was just a dream. - Yes...
The fucking kitchen isn't burning, you retard!
- Asshole! - Did you pee yourself?
You fucking twisted, disgusting fucking...
You're a fucking runt, that's what you are. You prick!
You asshole!
I'm here now. Don't worry...
Come on, I'll help you.
Let's go. Come on...
Hold onto me.
Sit here and I'll turn on the shower.
Sit down.
- It's not too hot? - What? No, it's fine.
That's fine. Thanks...
Over here as well.
Dad... It's okay... okay...
Dad!
Take it...
Help me pull it.
It's possible... It's just a bit small...
- It's not so comfy. - Can you really get in?
- Yeah, but hey... - Yes.
Promise you'll turn it off if I ask you to.
I've got an iron bar in my back.
Will you be okay? You sure?
- It's quite scary. - Okay...
Just knock or say something if you want me to turn it off...
Bend forward and you'll get in. It's fine.
It's horrible.
It's a little claustrophobic in there.
- A little? - It'll spin when you get in.
Watch out.
Lean back. Shall I help you? You can't force it.
Is your knee up here? Is your knee up here where I'm pressing?
- No. - Then you should be able to get in.
I'll pull you back a bit. Like this...
- Can you get in now? - Maybe if I turn around.
That's it. That's it, yes! You got in!
It looks totally sick! Okay, I'm closing it now.
- Sure. - Okay, are you ready?
Close your eyes.
- What for? - Just do it.
Close your eyes and tell me what you see.
Done by (c) dCd / January 2006